not that new
I've been struggling with recovery for about 3 yrs now, but my counsellors have been great and i think that is what keeps me here. I have not much for support so I have appreciated them greatly.In the bad days dying always seem easier but i haven't found the guts so i just continue to torture myself day after day.Finally in the last 4months my family doctor and counsellor have made me realize that my mental health is a big factor to my recovery.I suffer from extreme anxiety and depression, and the reality is i have for many years just not diagnosed.I guess that is part of why I'm here because i have been unsuccessful at meetings because my fear of people and the fear of showing my sadness, hopeleness, and how weak i really am prevents me from succeeding to move forward.This is an option that may work for me.Also on Monday after waiting 5 months will be my 1st appointment with a psychiatrist on monday.I guess i'm here to look for a support that i can accept and use with being afraid.