Its like a vicious cycle as I feel crap , but a drink makes it "better" in the short term.
Hence my name......I know where you are right this very minute. I finally got sick of being sick about a week ago. I curled up in a ball for two days and weathered that horrible feeling of withdrawal. It was not a pleasant thing at all, but I knew I had to. Almost a week later I feel like I got a new lease on life. If I can do it, I know you can.
I have an upbeat personality too but you never would have known it over the past few months...holiday blues and heavy drinking left me dark and brought many tears. You can do it.......there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I am living proof. We are all here to support you through it. The first step is the hardest, but well worth it!!!!
Hugs.