You were right I cannot stop
Hi there
As you know I felt I was not welcome here by some posters and said I was not posting again ,hope you will have me back please
I could not do it, stoppin yesterday that is.
I am wondering now if I ever will and feeling very hopeless, demotivated and very down. Thats not like me I am an upbeat person
Feel embarassed and ashamed that I could not do it
Worry I need "something" to make me feel ok everyday
I am fed up of waking up at 3 in the night and feeling sick, heart palpitations
Fed up of feeling physically crap
Its like a vicious cycle as I feel crap , but a drink makes it "better" in the short term.
I got my bloods back , Amazingly although I was drinking heavily over Xmas and New Years and thru dec, the liver results are best they have been ( dowm to 200 from 750) Makes no sense , but its still not a normal reading