Support and validation can be more than helpful, and give us the energy to go on.
I think you are half way there, even without the support you so need, because you clearly see that you have made a mistake and you also see that you need some "YOU" time, to regroup and rethink what you'd like to do.
Like you, there came a time when I really really really needed someone, anyone, to just take care of me for a change, even by appearing interested in MY feelings and my dreams and my choices.
I got some of that, but the best I got was when I realized that it all started with me. I didn't need anyone's approval to think what I think, or choose what I choose. I had finally reached that good point in recovery where I was confident in my own choices and values and decisions, even when I stood alone.
Hugs to you because I think you need some, and prayers that this transition will lead you to something good...it often does.
Hugs