Its great to hear others have been in the same position, the more I hear these similarities in my recovery/journey, the more at ease I feel.
Thank you all for responding.
Neo - well done...awesome achievement!
Unintoxicated - I kinda felt that way on some nights and others have the fear. Sometimes I just want to talk and then the fear of the talking creeps in, prob why once I get started i am fine...
intention - good point, I am still trying to remember it doesnt matter in these rooms and judgement I have been used to doesnt count anymore.