Hi Alphao5
Welcome to SR.
I think it's true for any addict that nothing changes if nothing changes.
What are you prepared to do to change your life?
Heres a list of links and stuff - lots of support groups and what have you.
Support is vital in my opinion. Noone ever does this alone - not the successful ones.
There may be something here that gives you a start
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...i-recover.html
Also come check out the substance abuse forum
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
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