Tears
I've been reading some of the stories in the Family & Friends forum tonight and I came across a sad story and just suddenly burst into tears. What we alcoholics put others through ?!
I'm day 8 sober and last Sunday when I was on my knees, hungover and finally beaten by booze I couldn't cry. I wanted to cry because I felt so much despair and shame and guilt but I just couldn't. Tears have threatened to fall a few times this week but I just haven't been able. Mostly I have felt on a high.
Then tonight this sudden emotional release. When I think of what could have happened, what I could have lost if I carried on drinking........
Anyway I picked up the phone immediately even though it is late here in the UK and I don't like to disturb anyone late. It was good to talk it through. It's ok to feel the feelings without medicating them, isn't it? Thank God I have been saved from this insanity and hell.