Thanks for all the positive comments everyone, its much appreciated. Its weird, today on day 8 I feel pretty good. I am glad I wrote all this stuff down, and have started doing it daily. I feel like today, wow, maybe I am fine and all the bad stuff in the past is over. I am glad I feel better, but am also glad I have my writing to remind me of the past, so I dont lose sight and go back to old ways.