No, you don't sound nuts at all. We've all been there. The resentment, anger & frustration are common. It's still early days yet for you. Be kind to yourself, & be patient.
I was very resentful of others being able to drink in the beginning. I was obsessed with NOT drinking, it was all I talked about or thought about. Eventually it all calms down and you begin to love your new life - but it takes awhile to adjust to all the changes. Your body is healing, & you're learning to live again in a whole new way. I promise you won't feel this miserable and confused forever. I made it out and you will too. Keep us informed - we care about you.