thank you so much guys. there is so much here; i feel good about this year, a sober year. i know what triggered the drinking the last time i had quit. i was too afraid of being judged to tell someone that, no, i could not have a beer. then i fell into, "oh, wow, i only had half and am really buzzed..." and, like i was told, it just progressed from there. i was almost in the same place i was when i stopped the first time, if that makes any sense. and two years just flew, the last several months a bit of an alcoholic haze. *sigh*
thank you again.