And if I call a hotline what are they going to do? How is that going to help me? I am not trying to be difficult just wondering what kind of help they can offer.....never thought I would be in this situation.
Sweetheart, it sounds like you're feeling hopeless. And the folks on the other end of the phone at a hotline can help you pull yourself out of that place and get the help you're asking for.
The call I placed to the hotline was the beginning of hope for me. The start of understanding how I got in that situation and paved the way for me to get out. Of course, first I cried and drove around for two days, but they will be able to give you sound, calm advice. And help you shift your thinking a bit so you believe you can get out of this.
Let us know how you're doing...