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Old 01-06-2010, 01:46 PM
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noubledegative
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hi all!

its pretty plain to see that sobering up forces you to face your problems head on. there no liquored up sidestepping, avoidance etc. myself...im dealing with flat out boredom...all my 'fun' in the last few years has come from drinking. now im not drinking i dont know how to have a good time...mostly im staying at home with my girlfriend which is awesome! but im not a home body, i wanna keep doing stuff: going out with friends, musical jamming, socialising, getting out in nature, etc. but at present im struggling to enjoy anything...its freaking hard, because its wen i feel like this that i want to drink. BUT i know that drinking, although initially fun will just lead to misery like before & before & before...so my alternative is to harden up and just be bored & flat. im hoping that i will slowy start to get some 'natural' enjoyment of life back...currently wen i go out & socialise i feel im 'pretending' & 'going through the motions' of having a good time...not actually being happy. I just gotta be patient i guess! and keep making positive choices & i think activley asking my friends if they wanna go do stuff that doesnt involve drinking even tho i get bored. is a good thing to do.

oh also...today i got a sponser!

i am thankfull im sober & gratefull for so much...its just so hard, this initial period...obsessing over alcohol all the time!!! i cant wait for life to get better!

keep strong guys
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