thanks for everyones response
unfortunately...seeing my Dr.(and being honest about detox) is not an option.
Small town in the midwest.......even if he were swore to silence, the rest of the nurses and what have you are not.
Own and operate my own business, and am just not ready for the back lashing of it all at this point.
I am going to see if I can find some (somewhat) local meetings, once I get some time under my belt, then I can move forward on my recovery.
and yes, my husband does have beer in the house.......and I cant "make" him change that. I am the alcoholic, not him.
My drinking is not the same as his, and we both know that.
I will fill him in on the number of days I have under my belt, once I get some.
As with smoking, its ........."not one puff"
"one puff away from a pack a day"
well, with me and drinking , its got to be......."not one drink"
"because One is too many and 15 is not enough"
I will continue to lurk as I have been, and pull from your knowledge and wisdom provided
Din