Wow, you're story sounds similar to mine. I'm in the psychology field as well, from a small town and can't seek help here. At least that's what I think. I did go to the next town 30 min away for a counseling session and didn't go back because of the ridiculous cost. So, I've been sober for four days only. I drink twice a week. I choose beer. Usually 6 or more. I don't drink in the morning or everyday but feel it's enough to say I have a problem. My family sure thinks so. I crave the **** though. Can't seem to stop it. I wanted to drink last night but didn't.
Anyway, I'm working on it.
Thanks for your story and honesty.