I don't think you're a fool P - I think you're a lot like me though.
I had to accept the inevitable - really fundamentally accept - I am an alcoholic...and I needed to work through the fear that comes with accepting that sobriquet for the rest of my life
It wasn't easy, but if I made one good call in my life that was it
I thought my life was over...but it was just beginning, P.
I'm with you, mate
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