eureka do not despair, there is hope in recovery, doing this alone works for very few, SR can be a tremendous asset and alone works for some.
If you find that SR alone is not getting the job done, why not give a long term recovery program a shot. When I say give a program a shot I would suggest that you WORK it at least 90 days every day to the best of your ability before you decide this is not for me.
No program works unless one WORKS it.
What worked for me was AA. Not only did I find a solution for my problems in the steps, but I also found real sober friends and support in the fellowship in AA. I will not lie and say I loved the meetings at first, I did not, but I wanted so bad to not be a drunk any more that I kept going back every day..... in time things got better by working the program and by getting support from fellow recovering alcoholics and I made friends and began to look forward to meetings.
Meetings for me are over an hour of peace, a place I feel safe sharing my problems and found solutions with others.
Find a program and stay at it until the miracle happens.