Why shouldn't you be posting - isn't that why we're all here - to hold each up during times like this? We've all had them to one extent or another.
You haven't curled up in a fetal position and given up, Eureka. You've come here to reach out and hopefully work on a new plan, one that will work. You CAN get well, hold your head up, and show everyone who you really are.
I can imagine how devastating this is, but use it to become more determined than ever to banish this garbage from your life. This never has to happen again. Sending love to you.