Originally Posted by
Kjell 
38 days down the drain. So much lost over one night. I don't want anymore L's, only W's.
I would suggest stop seeing it as a zero-sum situation. As long as that is your state of mind, you're still trying to manage and you're stalking your own obsession. I'm thinking that on NYE, your disease analyzed the situation (home babysitting and not "allowed" to drink), chalked it up as a L and immediately decided to convert the L to a W -- which for it was grabbing the bottle. "You" going the for a different "W" the next time is just an equal yet opposite futile endeavor. Let it go.
If that makes sense, based on these experiences you should be able to work through Step Three in about two minutes. You're letting it go. Then start on four.
Chris