Former Binge-drinker here too!! If I could get them I would also binge on drugs as well as drink but I am an alcoholic. An out and out binge-drinker. Drink untill passout everytime and to not do so would be a waste of a chance to do so. I cannot explain why I am like that other than I like it too much and am hopelessly addicted once my mind registers alcohol.
I have to make the decision to not take that first drink on a daily basis and make that my priority in life at the moment whils't I rebuild my life back up to what it should be at.
My binge drinking started to morph into daily drinking around the clock over binges of 2-3 days so I could see how it would eventually end up 24/7 homeless or dead/prison.
get out while you still can and try to embrace sobriety. You've done it before so can do it again and at least now you know that it will always end in tears and heartbreak once you are 'back in the drinking game'. Opt out on a daily basis.
All the best and thanks for posting.