thanks friends
my plan today is to work out in a couple of hours, go see a movie i have been wanting to see, and come home to get rested for a week of crazy work (this is a big one) and stay sober. my 'wife' i have come to conclude, has no idea the anxiety and things going on in my head when i am fighting these difficult days, i really need to work on my relationships today also.
well....thats the plan. we'll see.
dub