Congratulations Dub for trying again, but my friend...you need to have a plan and strategy. Sitting around drinking and then detoxing, drinking and detoxing is not a life.
I'll call a spade here...why do you think you will be able to abstain for good this time? Is it based on hope, because hope isn't a strategy. As the saying goes, if nothing changes then nothing changes. Doing the same thing over and over expecting different results and as you said yourself "for the millionth time"
Why don't you give some serious thought to this. It's a lifestyle change Dubs. If it means AA, therapy, doing volunteer work during the day, a second job, getting interested in a hobby, taking interest classes, a combination of any of the above, but something has to be implemented to give yourself the best possible advantage. What's holding you back?
I really wish you the best Dubs, not to discourage you, but you need to take action.