Hi Lady, You are definately welcome here. I found out that drinking truly was just a symptom of a more serious problem. But when drinking the possibility of healing or uncovering the causes were zero percent. It takes some time and a period of detox is required in addition to physically healing 12-24 months.
As far as literature I would suggest reading Living Sober. It is simple tricks how not to take that first drink.
Thanks for sharing you struggles.