Originally Posted by
LadySlur 
It certainly doesn't do for me what it used to, but being drunk still feels better than being sober. It's as simple and horrible and intractable as that. I find sobriety sufficiently uncomfortable that I cannot stand the idea of having to do it all the time.
That makes perfect sense to me. For a very long time, a drunken state that resulted in trouble was still better than a sober state that I couldn't deal with at all. As problematic as drinking was, it wasn't the primary problem. Stark raving sobriety -- that was the real problem. Like you, too, the booze eventually didn't work as well, and then, it didn't work at all. I don't know a more miserable place to be.
Whatever you find that works for you, I hope you find it soon.
Peace & Love,
Sugah