Originally Posted by
Sugah 
With all the consequences you listed in your first post, what do you see yourself receiving from drinking? What does it give you that you still have the desire to manage it rather than quitting all together? I'm not trying to be confrontational -- just asking.
It certainly doesn't do for me what it used to, but being drunk still feels better than being sober. It's as simple and horrible and intractable as that. I find sobriety sufficiently uncomfortable that I cannot stand the idea of having to do it all the time.