lostmyway

If you've really lost everything, don't you think there is a better life out there, just waiting for you? There's got to be something worth living for that is better than the hell you are going through.

I tried so many times to get sober that I lost count. I tried it on my own, I tried it under the care of a doctor, I tried AA, I tried finding God. I took it seriously so many times and still the alcohol won. After awhile, I found myself thinking, "This isn't even worth the effort. I am who I am, I can't change, and I will live and die this way."

I'm still in early sobriety now, but it is so much different that it was any of the other times I tried to get sober. The only thing that changed for me is that this time I REALLY WANT IT. I thought I wanted it before, but I wasn't ready. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to give up. That's the advice I would offer to anyone trying to get sober...you've got to want it. ****{hugs}}}