I am new to the whole truly acceptance thing. Many times I thought I had accepted alot of things. But not really.
But this time. I am accepting that I just can not use at all no matter what.
And I am not sure what got me to this point.
I think I tortured myself long enough and beat myself into it.
I am just tired. Seriously sick and flipping tired of myself.
Like laurie, I need to surrender. Its such a beat down feeling. But at the same time. It is so releiving. Like I cna breathe again.