Keep your chin up even if you don't feel like it...I've spent a lot of time in the dark as well. Sometimes it is a struggle to get "into the light" If it is sunny outside - go out in the sun...bundle up and just let it shine on you...it is symbolically stimulating. I like to get in touch with nature as much as possible when down...look at the sky, cloud paintings, trees etc. It helps some, it will change, you can count on it. Envision if you will what you would hold as your joyful life...what would your day be like, what would you be doing, thinking, feeling? This helps me get to the point of a faint smile and then it builds a little. It feels HOPEFUL instead of HOPELESS. Therapy, meds and connection with understanding people are great tools to help you release your feelings. These are not NEGATIVE feelings...I like to call it Motivational Dissatisfaction. One thing you can count on is that it will change.
Be well. (((HUGS))) D