Feeling lots better now. My mind is like a YoYo at the moment going from relative clarity and calm through to racing negative illogical thoughts. I am just getting through it without taking a drink and I know it will get easier. I guess it's all part of the mind-games the alclholic mind plays on us. My problems truly are all in my head, when I am thinking well I am calm and full of clarity but when I am thinking bad I am irrational and pained.
I guess thats where the difficulty of sobriety lies, facing the uneasy and painfull thoughts/emotions knowing that drinking ain't an option. For me it really ain't an option and getting my thoughts out on SR helps me get things clearer and rational.
Thanks SR