Dj
Welcome to the board. Grats on your progress.
The fear and anxiety always led me back to the bottle. Once I did a thorough housecleaning the fear subsided. The anxiety rears it's ugly head everytime I quit helping others and get overly-concerned with me.
The process I went through can't be done effectively through cyberspace. Or at least I don't see how it could.
Have you met face to face with any recovered alcoholics yet? I owe my life to them.