thanks healthyme, and congrats on defeating the thoughts christmas eve... i can relate to every word of that conversation w/ yourself you described.
christmas day was really difficult for me in the same way... i'm thankful to myself and to the support of SR that i didn't give in. (christmas morning someone dropped off two bottles of wine wrapped and ribboned... and mentioned several times that i should go ahead and open one... i'm sort of astounded to say that i never even unwrapped them!! 'just' took them to my friends party and regifted
i fought a lot of rationalizations all day long though, i have a hard time in big groups, part of why i'm usually drunk in them...
i even managed to turn down the traditional christmas scotch that i've shared w/ my old prof for years...
best present i've ever given myself or my daughter... i went to sleep feeling very good last night.
hope everyone is doing well, and a belated very merry to all...