complex emotions
I'm sure I have read about this many, many times......but what is it about him being gone that I miss? Is the routine, the normalcy? Because that really doesn't describe what life is like when he is here. He came yesterday to spend Xmas morning with the kids, which was fine...then I went to my parents, which he didn't want to go, so I left. He asked if he could stay last night...so ok I said. He really didn't talk, just went to bed. Every word he said to me from that point on was degrading. He was mean....just like always, and disgusting just like always....so why is it when he leaves I feel alittle lost and uncertain, because when he is here I feel angry and abused? This confuses me....