Congratulations on double digits, blackbirdsing!
Wonderful job on Day 17, least!
I was very close to indulging on Christmas Eve. I was stressed and wasn't fast enough to stop the drinking thinking from going all the way to "You're allowed to take the edge off once in a while. You have a lot going on right now. You'll be a better person to be around if you're more relaxed." I'm not sure exactly what saved me. It was a combination of coming on SR and thoughts of how awful I'd feel if I couldn't control it and began spiraling downward again. So, while I still haven't gotten the clear head that I was hoping for, I'm so happy that I've made it to Day 19.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!