Thanks for the support. Luckily I dodged the bullet for now TWO friends asked me to join them. One of them, my best friend who is acting as my informal sponsor, suggested that most of the people I know probably assumed I had plans because I used to come off as this strong, fun party girl. Little did they know... I guess we all get to be good pretenders and good at hiding. I didn't even think of this as a possibility but once he said it immediately felt better.
But isn't that just the way? We're all own worst enemies and our own worst critics, my instant assumption of abandonment was all in my head. I've been living with two many years of negativity, and that's one of my goals throughout my recovery. Merry Christmas all! We'll see what tomorrow brings. :-)