I think Sugah's advice is good lagirl....one day at a time.
You can't do any more than what you can do today...noone can.
For me the most important thing was to focus on my recovery, because without that I had no chance of fixing anything else.
I was 40 when I quit...I was drinking all day every day - I was the kind of guy people moved away from...
my life hasn't changed that much materially in 3 years, but I'm much closer now to the man I always wanted to be, and that means a lot to me.
We move mountains one shovelful at a time
Focus on your recovery from the drinking for now - and lean on the support you get here.
You're not alone