Hi lagirl
I agree with everyone else LOL - I think you're in exactly the right place
There's a lot of recovered people here, but this place is for anyone struggling with alcohol or drugs, or their families.
I was further along in my alcoholic journey than you when I came here but I wasn't entirely sure I wanted to quit either....the folks here helped me sort out what was the right way to go for me.
I believe you can pick your 'bottom' - but that wasn't possible for me.
I wish I'd known about SR a lot earlier
Read around, post as much as you like.
You'll find a lot of support here.
If you try and you can't stop, you'll find lots of help and suggestions on programmes etc. and what to do next.
A Dr is always a good first stop too
welcome!
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