Well, thank you for posting replies
I went in, people introduced themselves to me, explained what happened. I listened, and I mean, really listened.
I was so anxious and nervous I almost forgot to listen at some stages but hearing others speak of their past and also because this was a beginners meeting, they spoke about feelings, not picking up the first drink, experiences and life being sober. I heard things that rang loud and clear and believe the only thing stopping me now is being about to surrender.
Ive done alot of therapy over the years for various things but managed to keep all of this out of it so have learnt coping mechanisms for all sorts of situations. I can recognise behaviours in me but am fantastic at telling myself that I am ok.
What I really need now, is to be able to stand up and admit to myself who I am.
What I do know, is that I can never drink again. I know I have a very supportive partner and that today is all I need to worry about...and that feels pretty good.
Day 2 - sober
Day 2 - scared and sober
Day 2 - scared and sober and excited
What will Day 3 bring?
Thanks for listening