I think your on to something. WELCOME.
There is something about alcoholism that always make you think you don't have it and that I can control my drinking. I have heard it called a "built in forgeter"
That was the case until I accepted what "The Doctors Opinion" the introducory chapter to the big book outlined.
NOw that question has been answered permantently for me.
I hope if you are powerless over alcohol or anything else that you can find your solution.