Hi..Glad you joined us.
I have only been clean a little over a month so I dont have any answers for you on that or the mental alternatives.
But I do know how that guilt feels. I am still feeling it even after a month. But I am slowly coming out of it.
For me has taken alot of patience and acceptance. ALOT!!
Because not only did I lose everything in one night AGAIN! But I am also waiting as patient as can be to go into a sober living house that lasts 6 to 9 mos. And Also waiting ti start an IOP program, Its been about 3 weeks I have been waiting so far. I just want to get this ball rolling.
But alot of wise people here tell me all good things happen in time and theres a reason why things happen the way they do.
I cant argue with that.
So your not alone.