Thanks Astro. I'm in a Men's Life group with my church that I go to every Tuesday night. It helps. I'm considering starting AA as the minister of my church I've been going to since I was in Preschool is in AA as well. Not to make excuses, but it's very hard for me to find the time. I'm considering.
I do have faith in God. It used to suprise me when I reached out to hime for guidence, but not anymore. Last night leaving the office in route home which is a 30 minute drive I usually drank 1/3 bottel of Jim Beam or a 6 pack. The cravings are terrible right now, but I open my sunroof and stick a arm through the roof and pray and ask for strength. I get it. Now I'm asking for strength in my temperment which I have not done before. I'm praying probably 5-7 times a day now. I love the power of prayer.
My God allows me to pray however I see fit. There is not right or wrong way. I just enjoy talking to him. He talks back plenty, only without a voice.
Thank you.