I gotta echo what aysha said. There were plenty of what should have been "wake up" moments, my divorce, my bankruptcy, my suicide atempt, my stays in the mental ward, etc., but I still went right back at it. Like she said, for me, it was just reaching the point of realizing that I just couldn't keep doing this. I couldn't do it to my kid anymore, I couldn't do it to my parents anymore, I couldn't do it to my ex anymore, but most importantly, I couldn't do it to myself anymore. The last one was the hardest one because I really cared about the other people, but really didn't care about myself. Once I was able to care, even just a little bit, about myself, I was able to stop and stay stopped. So I guess maybe that was my breakthrough moment afterall. Hope you find what you are looking for here. Welcome and take care.