Originally Posted by
suki44883 
All I can say is that you obviously haven't yet had enough. When you have, you will know.
I think another large part in this...is when we broke up earlier this year, our arrangement for child support would be that he pays for my vehicle, all maintenence, insurance on it and pays for my cell phone.
I can survive without the silly phone, but that vehicle is a lifeline to so many things.
I'm worried that if I leave of my own free will, he'll freak out and threaten to take it back.
(actually that jogged my memory to last weekend, when he basically reitterated that the van is his)
After he had time to calm down, I do not think he'd actually go through with taking it away, but the mere thought of how stressed out I'd be is enough that I want to make the breakup seem like it's his doing. Like he pushed me too far and I had no choice.
I can't believe I'm even posting that, I feel awful and ashamed, but it's the truth.