Thank you Steve. Yes I am that kind of alcoholic. A horrible alcoholic.
I don't do drugs as they do nothing for me. One son has begged me to try pot in order to get through these withdrawals. I can't.
I drink for the 8 minutes or so left to feel no pain. Today is day 2 of no drinkng.
The withdrawals hurt. I see things and hear things that are not there.
On one hand I know that I am dying. On the other I know I won't have such luck. I want to drink in order for this pain to go away.
I will go to a meeting again today.
Thank you for the link.