Hi Marie,
You might be supprized to find out how many people have tried for years before they got sober for good, me 3 years ago i gave it a good try and before that, I have slipped up as many times as anyone here I'd guess, but I am keep trying, hopfully this time I will be sober for good. It's only been 10 days but I feel better now and have hope.
Just dont give up, your not alone...