Early sobriety is hard Sweetie, but trust me when I say it's worth it. SR was a life saver for me, still is. When I feel antsy or unsettled I come here and read a lot, I may not post but I read until the feeling passes. It was hard for me to concentrate on books when I first got sober but if that's possible for you I'd pick one up. I see you have Kids, maybe playing a board game or doing something as simple as coloring. Believe it or not coloring books can be great therapy!
Stick around and next thing you know the days will get easier, you'll learn new coping skills and you'll feel much better. It's hard to change your life, but it's possible and very worth it for you and your Babies~