I have to say this - my second sober holiday season - is SO much better than my first. So - Freeport & others who are feeling a little uneasy, it's going to be ok. I was resentful and sorry for myself the first time. Now I'm used to squashing those feelings as soon as they start to pop up. It takes a little time to undo the old habits & way of thinking. I try to remind myself that my memories of glowing, happy holidays because I could drink are a lie. I was a slurring, stumbling, hungover mess. I remember one year waking up the day after Christmas & being amazed that we had already opened all the presents. Christmas day had come and gone & I didn't even remember it. Oh yeah, that's a lovely way to celebrate.
Thanks again Horselover for this very helpful thread during a nervous time.