maybe so chino, yes i think i'm that way about people in general. i can't stand to see a hurting heart, any hurting heart, it literally breaks my heart too. i think im just co dependant to the core, i guess. i wish i could take away the pain of the world. i know sometimes it feels like my kindness is taken for weakness and maybe it is a weakness but i really don't see it that way because i think i'm aware of my intentions regardless of how others may see me.
i think i do forgive him partly because of own personal esp with addiction, i know what its like to be lock in addiction so if i'm feeling compassion rather than guilt, i guess i really didn't know the difference. either way, i just don't like feeling this way.