Awwwwwwww Honey!!! Here ----->
I'm sorry to read what I have. I hope that you can get through whatever it is that is driving you to pick up. I know that all the feelings that come with it can drive us to really kick ourselves harder than we deserve. We can really be our own worse enemies.
I'm not here to do any kicking but offer support. Just remember, one day at a time and no matter what, no matter what.........don't do it!!!!!
Wish you were here, I'd drag you to the 5:30 meeting with me, hee hee........