Welcome to SR. I too have a hard time dealing with the crap that had me drinking in the first place. I go to an addictions counselor once a week and that helps. SHe listens to me vent and offers ideas I hadn't thought of to deal with my problems. I am also on meds for depression and anxiety and they work a lot better if I'm not drinking, so that's incentive to stay sober.
Again, welcome to the family!