It does suck, but it is what we must do. A friend on SR said we mentally stunted our growth by turning to alcohol and I have found that to be true. Instead of "learning" how to deal with our emotions, we numbed them and in recovery we start our growth process again. If you need help and face to face support then find a support group. I have had success with SR and continue to lean on it. Some people don't find SR enough.
You are changing your life and with change comes anxiety. Don't drink. You can do it.