Old 12-07-2009, 03:21 PM
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Aysha
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It hurts my heart to read your posts, saying you are useless.
Thats total bullshyt!!
I will always have mad love for you.
I have been there just like you are now.
And today I am feeling the consequences.
I am scared and forced into doing some drastic life changes.
But good ones.
I was better off feeling those cravings. At least they didnt cause me to lose my job and almost get killed and sitting in the position I am in now. Me giving into those urges did all that. It wasnt worth it.
I agree with Dee, You need some kind of help. And maybe you need to do something different than you have been.
Its not good to feel like you hate yourself and are worthless.
You need to get that out of your head. Your keeping yourself sick thinking that way.
'I know its hard not to. I feel like the biggest POS all the time. But I have a family who loves me and believes in me and I have seen what I can do if I try. So I cant be all that bad.
And we have all seen the wonderful caring person you are here. And we have seen you go long periods of time sober. We all know you can, and you know it too.
Please dont dig any deeper.
Why were you rescheduled? Did you tell them it was mportant for you to go to your appt?
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